My annual reflection.

I can say that I have been through so much this year and learned so much about myself.

Probably my most valuable intake from this year is to embrace my failures, because they test us and force us to reflect on every step we take along the way.

Rejection from schools and military programs, has led me to my military job where I met my best friends and faced the challenges of the Israeli- Palestinian conflict.

A job that helped me Gain more life skills and eventually solidifying my understanding of myself and the path I want to take in life.

And my pre med course, that helped me gather all the missing pieces together, and prepare me for the new upcoming journey.

For the first time in forever, I feel complete and confident in who I am.

I am so happy I failed, and so should you.

I can’t wait to see what awaits for me in this new chapter in life:)

Every single one of us has something that terrifies them to the point of paralysis. Believe me, I can assure you that I have a few of those.

Some voices in my head that keep whispering to me that I am not good enough and I might never be. At times I almost feel that I will not be able to get over the fear and stand up on my feet. That I cannot fight it, I just give up to these cold whispers.

In the past few months I have been reflecting on many decisions that I have taken in life, trying to see what I have done correctly and what could have been done better.

I have been thinking about the past years and all the events that have shaped my personality over time.

A rejection from a dream school to a rejection from a prestige unit in the army, I developed the most terrible fear one can have- the fear of failing.

Today I can tell that these failures have led me to the most memorable events of my life. Without them, I wouldn’t have met my best friends in the entire world, or learn half of the lessons I have learned in my service, as if everything was happening according to a plan.

When I was done with my service I tried to reapply to my dream school and done everything in my power to do everything correctly in order to succeed this time. In the mean time, I started working in a job that have taught me a lot about life and adult life in particular. A few months later I get a letter, informing me that I was rejected again, however, this time, instead of feeling agony for my failure, I was relieved. I was ready for a change.

I was ready to start something new.

I started a pre medical prep course that prepares students for medical studies in Europe, met incredible friends and teachers, each with unique story and a passion for the field. I was inspired to learn more, work harder and more importantly I was ready to evolve as a person. The more. I researched about the European cities, the more excited I get about the challenge of not only studying medicine, but also moving to a complete new country, with different. language, culture and traditions. Afresh start. Maybe this is all, again, happening according to a plan.

As I’m writing these lines, I am probably using the platform to have a little escape from my studying routine before my entrance exams, to tell you that I still hear those cold whispers and I feel the fear tingling in my fingers, yet this time I let go to the meaning of their words and focus on the good.

No matter what will happen what is to happen in the future, I know it is for the best- success or failure because either way will lead me eventually one step closer to the sweetness of the real victory of discovering myself.